September 2011
focus
I just got out of my 3rd exam of my college career. Although i have not failed any exam (unless I failed the one from yesterday and today) I have not been focused. It isn’t my typical lazyass procrastination that is preventing my studies, it is the lack of motivation. Something I am not familiar with at all. My mind is everywhere yet everyhing still is lacking even an ounce of sense.
what am I doing?
I realize that I am in college, and I also realize that this does count for “something.” However, hardly anything here feels right to me. I feel as if rather than building up my life, I am stalling it. More questions are being formed than answers. Greater still is the question of what is it really that I need, where is it that I need to be to acquire whatever I am looking for. Doubt...
How is it that I feel so trapped up here?
Life is life, dreams are dreams-And I am floating...
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I figured today would be a fantastic day..until...
PTSD is fucking real.
bowfantee asked: I feel as if I need you right now. I need to vent to you and hear how you are doing and all. You shall receive a phone call from me today. I miss you. :(
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Why is it that all of the sudden momsie is...
She’s only had…oh, 8-9 years to do so. Ever since I’ve taken the initiative to visit in spring she’s been gradually making small talk. It takes a lot for me not to snap at her when she goes on about the weather, boys, or whatever. Then it makes me absolutely sick to hear her tell me not get caught if I drink or smoke pot at college parties. Even worse, I want to strangle...
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bowfantee asked: I love and miss you.
“If I am so wonderful then why am I so misunderstood?”
– Mindless Self Indulgence—Kill the Rock
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Just stopppp talking.
Lonely :(
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